just me

2009-12-16T08:49:00.002+08:00

right now im wondering, am i feeling weird because i just realized that i forgot to submit my schedule which might make the entire of january void, or that its just so sweet of those two, to be willing to die for the other, to be willing to die together thinking that there was no way out, to stay wherever as the other wishes, and to go wherever the other wishes. aint that sweet ?

2009-12-16T05:40:00.002+08:00

now im watching return of the condor hero (: in hanyu its shen diao xia lu. an awesome love story between those two, so sweet (:

cant seem to stop watching, even though im so tired already .. hahahah !

but the female lead is truly beautiful ! though, the girl in my memories somehow, is forever more beautiful (:

2009-12-15T01:38:00.002+08:00

zetten bbq, to me i spent most of the time admiring someone (: it totally shocked me ! i shall not reveal the names, but lets put it this way, last year at venos chalet, it was the first time ive met girl A, never talked, just saw her at the other side of the chalet and was totally mesmerized. it was my first time seeing her because she did not attend FOW. came to know her and stuff and found her really really nice (: so yes, most people who actually have brains would know whats going on.

then at the bbq, it was my first time talking to girl B. i couldnt recognize her at all ! cause she looks totally different from what i remember her to be, like totally prettier ? in a way she very much resembled girl A, just shorter a bit and more kiddy looking and sharper jaw, but she has those eyes, that hairstyle, and the way she talks, just totally reminds me of girl A. wowed.

i can never forget those eyes, beautiful eyes that mesmerized me. and here came someone who resembles her.. wow. speechless (:

2009-12-12T03:57:00.003+08:00

for the past 12 hours or so, ive been thinking, of the dream i had. once again a dream like that appeared, i cant remember who exactly appeared in most of the previous recurrences, but this time, it was Her. as usual i wont say her name, but i do miss her. maybe these dreams just shows me what i miss, merging all the different aspects of my life into one little moment in my sleep.

but its what happens in these moments that makes me ponder around. where i am, what i do, what i was feeling, who the other person is, whats the relation between me and that other person. some say that the dream is a code telling people what they truly desire, but i dont get it (:

i miss you ! well actually i miss a lot of people, whom ive not met for quite some time

2009-12-10T03:41:00.002+08:00

jeez right now i cant remember what i wanted to blog about earlier today, having too many thoughts to actually remember what i was thinking.

so i read my daily horoscope and i totally agree on the following.

What seems to be true from your perspective may not be, Taurus, so you have to take many factors into consideration in order to gain a proper vantage point. It's a kind of day on which you need to step back from the problem because, in a metaphoric sense, "you're too close" and not seeing enough of the picture to find the pattern that needs to be corrected. Either your opinion or selective memory could cause you to lose touch with what's going on. A bird's eye view and detached reason are what's needed now.

what seems to be never is (: and this is my life

2009-12-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

ah so tired. dammit 12 hour shift tomorrow ! freak. but anyway, my hair is .... fuzzy ! it becomes so grassy when wet and omg horrible.

but anyway, I CANT REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO BLOG ABOUT ! hahahaah

2009-12-03T02:28:00.002+08:00

omg my hair is short ! andand its .... weird ! it looks awesome when styled up, but back at home after a good shower, i confirmed my previous thoughts that my hair is weird.

one side is actually longer than the other ! it makes styling look cool but when not styled, its weird ! jeez.

andand im kinda unlucky, its like, i got something sprayed into my right eye twice ! first was the hair gel solution which was accidentally sprayed into my eye while my hair was styled. then next is some sauce, chilli i think, which went into my eye after jaggi dropped it into the sauce container. its like the rebound from the impact made the sauce squirt out a bit and it just nice went into my eye ?! wth. what luck.

Happy Birthday Rolly

2009-11-28T04:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Caroli Yeo Ke'Er (:

2009-11-25T01:05:00.002+08:00

loading the harry potter series into my phone was a totally beyond genius idea (: full hd, awesome color, and stereo sounds (: awesomeeeeeeeee !

though watching it gives me rather lots of thoughts about everything, which im not so interested in spilling it out here. but its cool (:

2009-11-22T06:00:00.002+08:00

with blurry eyes, the clearest thing i can see is only my memories (:

2009-11-18T04:45:00.002+08:00

downloading Ichigo 100% translated manga volumes (: illegal ? i own the entire set ! so why am i downloading ? cause i like the translation made by that particular scanlation group (:

the ultimate dream girl : Nishino Tsukasa (:

2009-11-18T00:58:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wish i dont have such good memory, so troublesome to remember all those stuff that happen in my life. its so annoying, keeping my mind so occupied. but i guess sometimes even normal people wont forget memories like that so easily.

for long i've wanna just be alone, away from all these troublesome things. life is just troublesome. but life is just life, troublesome as it is, one cant run from it.

and sadly working at that little store there aint enough to keep me from thinking, and instead, it makes me highly distracted.

what i want, is not from this world called reality ):

i want to live in a fantasy world (:

2009-11-17T16:14:00.003+08:00

ah my eyes ! its getting really annoying not being able to see much when my eyes are tired. but luckily some ultra lazy person who'd rather starve to death than go downstairs to get supper walked me to the bus stop. hahahahah!

well that was all yesterday, couldnt sleep this morning, dont know why, woke up and played dota with nigel, that crazy guy diddnt sleep for days =.= well because something tragic happened, well anyway, slept later on, like finally some sleep.

andand yes ! i finally managed to squeeze all those videos into my phone (: my new converter rocks to the max !

2009-11-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i last went back there, but its fun (: met some people, whom i've not met for quite some time. seems my little freshie hogged my phone and posted on twitter that she did so. hahahah ! internet connection from just anywhere seems quite fun (: though the lag without wi-fi. jeez.

i dont like being touched, not my stuff being touched, cause i dont like fingerprints on my stuff, and thanks to my muscular memory i tend to remember the feeling of contact which is quite irritating. so i avoid it and things like that. avoiding what it really feels, warm (:

the past is history, the future is mystery, but today is a gift, thats why its called the present

2009-11-16T05:53:00.002+08:00

why cant i just get a rest. its so tiring. its so troublesome.

as a perfectionist who cant get anything i want, sometimes its just good enough with anything.

2009-11-12T05:35:00.001+08:00

new phone new phone new phone new phone new phone new phone ((:

though i fee its quite useless without having a PS3. but anyway. whatever (:

things are such a drag .

2009-11-09T04:33:00.002+08:00

on the way to work something weird happened..

its like, i met apple ? but not. it was this girl who very much resemble her. i was so shocked, at side glance she really resembles her, bit taller and not having that little mole. approximately same figure, just a little bit, like maybe 2 or 3cm taller than apple. but what shocked me most was that girl's voice. it really sounds like apple ! a little difference in the speech pattern but the voice tone sounds very familiar. its like, apple in a gentle and well mannered speaking, not that shes rude or whatever, but that apple is more hyper and erm .. cute ? hahahahah.

but that, it totally made me miss apple totally. having great memory means that i could remember all the moments i spent with everyone. including apple of course (: crap now i miss that cui de even more =x

2009-11-05T05:22:00.001+08:00

broke, bit sick, and still called back to work. dammit. killer !

but anyway, payday is comingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg !!!! yay me (:

2009-10-31T06:04:00.002+08:00

pretty girls are really distracting.
eh ?

side notes: blog skin idea finalized. now i just need to find time to put together everything on phothoshop and .. hope it comes out well (:

camera-hogging to get the pictures. and while looking through, i found out i caught a picture of that girl with her bangs. HAHAHA!

2009-10-30T05:54:00.000+08:00

been thinking a LOT. oh and at the bus stop on the way back, i smelled a familiar shampoo scent. i wonder who was it coming from though. definitely not the original girl, cause she cant be there and wont be there and even if she is that i'd have noticed instantly.

i hate having these awkward emotions. its so troublesome.

2009-10-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

seriously ive been doing a lot of stupid things, like wanting to cook instant noodles, i placed the pot on the stove and ignited the flame, then i realized there wasnt any water in the pot to boil ... and other stupid things which i am not going to elaborate into. seriously i think its all her fault, ultra contagious retardation process.

Emotional Resonance.
i seriously need to stop thinking so much.
and i hate it when i get emotionally attached to something(or someone).

i need a break from life, some peace and quietness, which seems so impossible to obtain.

2009-10-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

it WAS Fatin's birthday, well it passed but anyway, Happy Birthday (:

dummy spent her birthday sleeping at the library! wake up sleepyhead! hah my turn to call while you're sleeping (:

2009-10-27T03:57:00.003+08:00

sometimes, it really sucks to have everything be controlled by my mood. especially when i just dont know why im feeling so angry today. like, i just dont get why the anger wont ware off. makes me not feel like eating dammit. stupid "puking sensation" stuffing up my throat, even though i am starting to get gastric and dizzy and whatever crap. irritating.

but that doesnt matter does it, cause, theres no other human who speaks at my frequency.
people may have many things in common with me, but none understands me (:

hot girls are distracting. stupid people are annoying. life is troublesome. smiles are appealing. stars are the most understanding. and most people are just so, blind? whatever. losing the feel to go on (:

2009-10-24T05:22:00.002+08:00

my eyes hurt after i had an interest on Ouija Boards. read loads of things about it, like things to and not to do, and things like making one. its kinda spooky, while reading i keep having that irritable feeling that trembles down my body.

but, i dont know why i feel like trying it. its so interesting ! any takers ?

and seems i have trouble sleeping. been thinking too much =x so much that i cant remember what exactly i was thinking about because i am thinking of something else again. jeez.

2009-10-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

hmmms so i spent 30 bucks reserving the entire set of manga of Ichigo100%. and next month when i get my pay i'll collect it and pay the rest of the 86 bucks. jeez broke !

but anyway i watched the movie 2 Young, in chinese, erm pingyin, Zhao Chan, meaning premature birth. or something like that. heres the wiki link, click here, anyway isnt it lovely, its like, those 2 ran away and just lived a world by themselves. well in a place like singapore, there aint anywhere to run to. its like, you cant even leave the country ! and apart from that, this place is too little to have any sort of fun.

anyway, ate dinner at pastamania with mark and umairah. excluding since she diddnt order anything to eat and she came late anyway. awkward is that sitting around our table are couples, then mark was saying, "C". and looking to the right. so i say, "C what". then he say "pei(cup) in english is what", so matching the words, it makes C Cup. hahahah! so i said "that girl in red?" and he gives a dull reply "dont say it until so obvious" hahahahah! so yeah, that girl is hot. wow. hahahahah ! from side view she has pretty eyes. nice body, and whatever. but wow, aint it cool to have a girlfriend like that ? hahahahah.

hmm. the movie Heat Team starring aaron kowk and eason chan is ... DAMN FUNNY !! hahahah