Saturday, October 31, 2009

pretty girls are really distracting.
eh ?




side notes: blog skin idea finalized. now i just need to find time to put together everything on phothoshop and .. hope it comes out well (:

camera-hogging to get the pictures. and while looking through, i found out i caught a picture of that girl with her bangs. HAHAHA!

Friday, October 30, 2009

been thinking a LOT. oh and at the bus stop on the way back, i smelled a familiar shampoo scent. i wonder who was it coming from though. definitely not the original girl, cause she cant be there and wont be there and even if she is that i'd have noticed instantly.



i hate having these awkward emotions. its so troublesome.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

seriously ive been doing a lot of stupid things, like wanting to cook instant noodles, i placed the pot on the stove and ignited the flame, then i realized there wasnt any water in the pot to boil ... and other stupid things which i am not going to elaborate into. seriously i think its all her fault, ultra contagious retardation process.




Emotional Resonance.
i seriously need to stop thinking so much.
and i hate it when i get emotionally attached to something(or someone).

i need a break from life, some peace and quietness, which seems so impossible to obtain.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

it WAS Fatin's birthday, well it passed but anyway, Happy Birthday (:


dummy spent her birthday sleeping at the library! wake up sleepyhead! hah my turn to call while you're sleeping (:

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

sometimes, it really sucks to have everything be controlled by my mood. especially when i just dont know why im feeling so angry today. like, i just dont get why the anger wont ware off. makes me not feel like eating dammit. stupid "puking sensation" stuffing up my throat, even though i am starting to get gastric and dizzy and whatever crap. irritating.


but that doesnt matter does it, cause, theres no other human who speaks at my frequency.
people may have many things in common with me, but none understands me (:


hot girls are distracting. stupid people are annoying. life is troublesome. smiles are appealing. stars are the most understanding. and most people are just so, blind? whatever. losing the feel to go on (:

Saturday, October 24, 2009

my eyes hurt after i had an interest on Ouija Boards. read loads of things about it, like things to and not to do, and things like making one. its kinda spooky, while reading i keep having that irritable feeling that trembles down my body.

but, i dont know why i feel like trying it. its so interesting ! any takers ?




and seems i have trouble sleeping. been thinking too much =x so much that i cant remember what exactly i was thinking about because i am thinking of something else again. jeez.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

hmmms so i spent 30 bucks reserving the entire set of manga of Ichigo100%. and next month when i get my pay i'll collect it and pay the rest of the 86 bucks. jeez broke !

but anyway i watched the movie 2 Young, in chinese, erm pingyin, Zhao Chan, meaning premature birth. or something like that. heres the wiki link, click here, anyway isnt it lovely, its like, those 2 ran away and just lived a world by themselves. well in a place like singapore, there aint anywhere to run to. its like, you cant even leave the country ! and apart from that, this place is too little to have any sort of fun.


anyway, ate dinner at pastamania with mark and umairah. excluding since she diddnt order anything to eat and she came late anyway. awkward is that sitting around our table are couples, then mark was saying, "C". and looking to the right. so i say, "C what". then he say "pei(cup) in english is what", so matching the words, it makes C Cup. hahahah! so i said "that girl in red?" and he gives a dull reply "dont say it until so obvious" hahahahah! so yeah, that girl is hot. wow. hahahahah ! from side view she has pretty eyes. nice body, and whatever. but wow, aint it cool to have a girlfriend like that ? hahahahah.


hmm. the movie Heat Team starring aaron kowk and eason chan is ... DAMN FUNNY !! hahahah

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

and i found the song ! seriously, sometimes chinese sites are just better in finding things. though i cant write chinese, i still remember the little techniques my chinese teacher once taught me, to read chinese characters, i can read some of them, but atleast i still can read.

heres the song :
Zhi Shao Hai You Ni, lit: At least there is still you.



the chorus goes, translated, something like this:

supposing, i could even let go of the whole world,
at least there is still you who deserves me to cherish,
and having you here is the miracle of life.

perhaps, i could even forget the whole world,
but i am unwilling to lose those news about you,
the mole on your palm, i will always remember that it is there.


now aint that sweet (:
andandand, hahahahahahah! nana has homework ! =P

Monday, October 19, 2009

today at the store there was this really really really adorable girl ! judging by her physical appearance she should be around 14 or so. dressed in a blue and white hoody top, standing at approximately 150cm tall. fair skin and short hair, something like yui minamito's short hair length but bit more stylish than that blob cut. but shes just totally adorable, with a sweet sounding voice too. omg she made me lose concentration and i made the next order wrong. hahahah!

but seriously, its hard to find girls that adorable just anywhere.


kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~

Saturday, October 17, 2009

hahaha ! theres this interesting application called Your Marriage or something and my result got something stupid luh hahahahah ! says i'll marry peishan in icantremember years and have 10 kids. TEN KIDS ? HAHAHAH !! crazyy. i diddnt post it, its just too stupid.

so anyway i spammed that thing to get a result i dont dislike.
and i'll marry ______ ___ in 10 years in Argentine and have 5 kids. awwww.

but, HAHAHAHAHAH!! what a funny application (:



on the train today i heard this song, it sounds very familiar, and i like that song very much, but i cant remember anything about the artist or the title. but i remember the tune clearly but its hard to describe here in wordings, though the lyrics of the chorus approximately goes "quan shi jie dou ke yi wang ji chu le ni bu" something something. translated it means, the whole world can forget except you. something like that, i cant remember the song !! butbut i really like the tune. dammit. remember me.

Friday, October 16, 2009

jeez. headaches coming back again, its so irritating. its even hard to concentrate on doing anything at all. anyway, it has been rare to find people who still give and receive money with both hands. that lady seems very nice, patiently waiting, giving the money and receiving the change with both hands.

hmms and i dont know why i keep singing to westlife songs when im bored. hahahahah ! like no link actually. hahahahah !

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

ouch i burnt my finger, and cut my thumb. damn pain.

anyway i was bored after work, and talked on phone with a half awake nana for 2 hours ! hahahahahahahah. nana so blur hahahahahah !

but anyway thanks for talking crap for 2 hours (: even though you were really dozing off at the end hahahahah

a sweet song that nana likes, i think its quite nice too, but its a bit slow .. makes me sleepy! but anyway, here is the song, with the lyrics in the video.

Try by Asher Book:

Monday, October 12, 2009

a new episode of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood. bit confusing but still nice anyway, though what make me like the episode most is the new ending theme. being a person like Manaka is kinda .. sweet ? but being someone like Edward is cool ! hahahah. and having a friend like Winry is kinda nice too. (read the manga or watch the anime to know the details) its like shes always there for edward, since shes his mechanic. but the point where the battle scar, its kinda sweet how edward protected her instead.

am listening to I'll Be There For You (: its a sweet song.

oh, and, a 6 inch cheese steak on hearty italian with egg mayo and double cheese toasted for just the right amount of time topped with lettuce, cucumber, pickles and more cucumber and sweet onion sauce on the lettuce with lots of mayonnaise and a slight dash of bbq sauce on the meat, IS JUST SO AWESOME ! (:

Sunday, October 11, 2009

hmmms. this morning i played warcraft with adrian, its like, so long since ive last saw him, met him, or even chat with him. the first few people i know in my old class f804 (: was fun ! he was working in a LAN shop and its like ... 4am ? so we played instead.


anyway, i just remembered how i've found Jennifer Aniston very pretty, ever since young when i watched the sitcom F.R.I.E.N.D.S and how much i loved the theme song.

a video of the song, with the various cast in the sitcom:


the lyrics :
So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...




somehow i think of nana when i listen to this song, is there another weirdo out there who understands how scary needles are, how we just laugh suddenly cause we remember something funny from before, and many other things like being lazy and all.

NANA YOU'RE A LAZY PIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
whos trying to lose weight



wont it be fun ? like growing up with a bunch of good friends. and its like, in the sitcom too, spanning 10 years, growing up each year with the bunch of people you work with, its hard to put in words, but wont that be sweet ?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

and i slept all the way till now. wow ! still so tired jeez ~ its like damn i miss my own bed hahahahahah !!




damn so sleepy. another night without sleep ! this time i camped at swee's house. eugene wasnt home sadly and i took cab to swee's house, cause i was out of cash, and swee helped me to pay first, though its like .. he paid 24, and the actual cost is 30+ but the kind cab driver accepted it ! well i asked before getting on, he said that he'll take 24, its rare to find kind people out there !

anyway i was late for work cause i got off at the wrong bus stop, then i realized i was somewhere at the corner of bugis, when i walked to sim lim square. then at the bus stop i realized that i dropped off too early, and ... EH?! i met shujian ! its like first time meeting him since .. graduation ? he was a total asshole back then, but he seems quite nice, andandand he studies at Lasalle, how cool is that ?! heeh.

anyway Caucasians, they sure dress differently. there was this lady, luckily shes not very old, i think not that much older than me, and shes not ugly, or my eyes would rot off. lets see, she was wearing this white top, with no bra. hey its obvious thank you. hahahahah ! dont know what else is she NOT wearing, but guess its legal, since the law is only to WEAR something that does not openly show everything. but its like, seriously if you aint wanna wear something there, atleast not wear white (:



headaches too often. irritating. cant even think properly !

Friday, October 9, 2009

damn headache. lack sleep + motion sickness = crazy pain. just came back from eugene's house, since i missed the last bus/train home. need for speed is so addictive ! hahahahah ! but seems, its impossible for me to get a license (:

anyway, awkward dream again ! i dream that i had a girlfriend, or something like that. thing is, i dont know that girl in that dream ! hahahahahah. andand at the store today, there was this guy who was hugging his girlfriend, hey seriously, this is a restaurant, dont do things like that. its like, hugging her in a way to feel her boobs, nice moves ! but do it private please. hahahahah!


too tired to remember what i was thinking about. oh yeah ! the thrash today was so heavy, that i couldnt lift it by myself. wth ! its like i had to drag it. need sleep.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

wow ? how weird ! random adds are so weird.


anyway. i'm watching Mulan again ! the movie is really nice (:


oh and. somehow i got an urge to make a new blogskin, again !
think i'll be posting updates on how it went (:

Project Blogskin starto !

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

ouch. the stored "died" today. so many customers at dinner rush that the bread ran out. wow. then sam went to amara hotel to "borrow" bread, which is actually exchanging, we pass them the bread dough and they give us the bread, so that evens out the numbers. anyway its like no bread to sell. omg ! hahahah andand everything was a mess too ! the kitchen had boxes of dont-know-what laying right behind the door ! and once i had to run back there to grab something and BAM ! slammed into the stuck door and got a cut on my face. its small, but it hurts since its on a cheek muscle, irritating every time i close my eyes.



anyway my dad got pissed off cause i told him off, cause he wanted to ask me something very obvious while i was sleeping, he tried to pull my hand over to get my attention and i snatched it back and told him not to touch me. i really dont like him, cause he knows NOTHING about me. and never bothers to. so why should i care. seriously, doing the things im most irritated by, go fuck somewhere else and dont come bother me thank you.

things i dislike : being touched(like grabbing my hand or even rubbing shoulders while walking), waking me up(i hate my alarm), asking obvious questions(seriously, are you that STUPID?), doing stupid things over and over again(now that's just plain retarded.) , bugging me while i am half awake(like waking me up then bugging me again), forcing me to do something i dislike, trying to tell me off when you have totally no clue about me. oh and buzzing around me.

seriously, if you dont know me at all, and dont bother to want to, i wont bother treating you nicely. its fuck off if you want to be a nuisance in my life.

but of course, i'm a very biased person. theres some people who i have a higher level of tolerance towards, and would get less irritated by even if they do something i dislike. oh and some people i wont dislike, just feel weird over it. care too much for those people to hate them at all. weird ! hahahahah.

i fell like calling that cui de out.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

jeez so tired. diddnt sleep last night cause if so i wont be able to wake up for work, cause jaggi switched shifts with me and ... it became me working morning shift. so tiring ! but anyway the manager taught me some things which the other assistant managers never mentioned. was fun (: but so tiring.

went to galston's house later on, but totally fell asleep in the end. hahahahahah !

but omg. this body sure feels awkward to be in. jeez

Saturday, October 3, 2009

heh heh today at the store, its that pretty girl again, though this time i diddnt notice her come in since i was at the back slacking. but anyway, shes .. pretty ! has the ideal voice tone, slang and figure (: hahahahahah !

but seems like my eyes are gonna be like hers soon. like 200 degrees ? i think i really need specs already. my eyes are blurring out already =x

from going to work till work shift end, ive met loads of pretty girls. but i think i wont get to see them much longer, with this kind of eyes =x

why does it feel like i'm aging faster than normal ?

Friday, October 2, 2009

thinking back, this world has very little idiots like me, who'd find it very hard to say no, as long as something is possible, even if i dont like it. given the condition that the person who request is not someone i dislike, which is very rare.

throughout the years, how many times ive said no compared to yes ? even if i dont like it, even if i am busy, even if i am very tired, have i said no ? the times i do, most of it has reasons which i cannot defy, when im broke to the core, how else can i do anything?

but this world has very little idiots like me who'd agree to just anything.

call me when you need me and i'll be there. that applies one sided, definitely. my world of only me, i've tried hard to not rely on anybody, there's rarely a time when i really need somebody to be there, but, when that time comes, who's there for me? seriously. yeah like there's another idiot out there who'd defy all chains of obligation to help someone who's really in need.

say this say that, do you realize how much i needed you people ? not only in times of stupid things like exam, but also times when i'm just not feeling good and want someone to talk to. only rare occasions have people ever been there for me, and of course, none of them are blood related to me.

Welcome To My Life, where i walk alone down a Boulevard Of Broken Dreams (:

i used to listen to those songs, though somehow i dont really like them too. it just brings out everything ive tried to run away from. but its true aint it. nobody in this world, seriously, nobody, knows how i actually feel. nobody knows me enough to even say that he/she understands me. you dont know how it feels (:
and i fucking hate the second song. its so fucking sad that it makes me tear down. but it just perfectly describes my story. while most people dont know anything about my background, and how i lived since the moment i was born, this song more or less describes it. every now and then i feel like dying, but i'm still alive and i just keep moving forward for no specific reason, for no dream i chase. people come, people go, and in the end i'm still alone.

sometimes i would just wish someone would tell me, that i'm not alone, and mean it. anybody can say that, but nobody has been able to mean it. living in this world of lies, nothing changes anything.

lets just forget everything once more~




Luck ran out =x

the results for the exam finally came out, and i failed, again. really tried hard, well i know i could have done better, but luck really ran out this time (:

it hurts a little, but somehow, ive known this feeling too well, got too used to it. while living this crap life of mine, ive found a simple solution to have happiness. have you ever wonder why, all those simple people get the happiest lives while those who strive so hard to live happily ends up in much disappointment ?

knowing my life sucks, i made it simple, good things means i'm lucky. bad things means i'm unlucky. mistakes means i'm unlucky, miracles means i'm lucky. even every little thing in life in reflected in luck. and thinking that its luck, i can just ignore it, knowing that nobody can control luck. well that's just how my life is.

live a life where almost everything goes wrong, and still be happy, something must be wrong isnt it ? but that is possible when that singularity thinks not of his or her unfortunate events and of those little happy moments that existed there and then. i miss those times, i want to go back into the past and relive them. clearly its a form of escape, but that's how unhappiness is avoided.

in life, each and every seek some sort of happiness, even those 'bad' people out there do them, just that different people have different liking in things and different things make them happy. if my life is just full of tragic events, doesnt mean i cant be happy. meeting everyone around me, having fun just doing simple things, yes, i can have fun while doing cleaning chores at work. being a perfectionist and all, nothing is more fun than making things perfect (: though knowing nothing can be perfect, i can still do what i want.

doing what you want, is that not what everyone wants to do ? just hate being tasked to do things you dont want, you dont like and you just want to do something you want? life's like that, theres always times where you have to do some things, even if you dont like it. so why not just have fun doing it ?

the future is a blank, nobody knows what comes the next moment. some people say the world is going to end soon, is that so ? knowing nothing about whats in front, why not we just ignore everything else and keep moving forward, and slowly peek into the unknowns called the future.

its been a sad morning for me, but i know i'll get over it. like how i'd eventually get over every tragic event that happens. trying hard to live the 'happy go lucky' life.


Life Goes On . reality hurts, that's why I want to stay in my dream.