Thursday, April 30, 2009

jeez broken blisters and painful elbow. purely irritating! but it was rather fun in overall still (: im starting to suck in basketball, cant seem to feel the ball (last time i could do tricks with my eyes closed, just purely "feeling" the ball) and both my eyes and, especially, my body cant keep up.

anyway i found something weird! someone who has the same likings as me and the same phobia too o.o omg ! oh and her singing voice sounds nice (: but seriously it was pretty weird, its like omg finally someone understands the fearsome nature of needles! lol.


damn tired, damn distracted.
my heart needs a lot of time to sort out everything carefully.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

jeez lol basketball on monday still has its effects on me, irritating body ache. and currently, the TP website still wont load.. i cant even print out my timetable from here.

anyway, its like wah everyday see mathew lol! i think i'm a bad GL, i helped a freshie to buy cigs when he's underage =.= well it wasnt for him, it was his friend, but shes underage too. wth. plus somehow i bought the cigs even though im not officially 18 lol.

hmm . took a few hours in the night to finish this! (:

Sunday, April 26, 2009

there was a zetten outing today at east coast park. i woke up at 10am, then went back to sleep in the end hahah. it started to rain and the weather was soo nice ! later in the evening i went to yishun interchange there to buy dinner and met yinlun on the way back. lol ! so long since i last saw my little junior (: he had this dumb hairstyle though. lol thats just northbrooks, what cha expect ?

later in the night was more crazy. VENOS OUTING THIS FRIDAY! (: anyway its like im chatting with multiple people, playing game, listening to music, surfing the net, and digging some work on paige's blogskin.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

been a week, that passed by so slowly. i need some sleep right now (:

it was weird anyway, on wed, more like thurs morning, sitting downstairs talking at 2am. just talking crap, about random stuff, looking and discussing about what we'd do with our futures, if my appeal fails, what would i do, where would i go after that and etc. talked about his bike mods, things he'd wanna do about it, a plan he could do in the near future. anyway we bought some supper and sat outside and talk even more crap till like 4 or so lol. then played dota till 6am after that.

day next, dota the entire day again. well better than doing nothing thoughout the day. and friday, its the first time i went to school this week! lol jinye said "this is the first time i see you in school" like duh its the first time i came to school.

anyway the wheelbarrow thing, its damn tiring. my stupid wrist was shaking after just the first round. after the second round, my shoulder aches like crap. jeez. anyway was fun (: and i diddnt become the wheelbarrow in the end! saved alot of effort plus my wrist wont be screaming hahah.

been thinking about alot of stuff recently, but just dont feel like blogging now, and most likely not even here. tatas world

Saturday, April 18, 2009

jeez. i hate the recent days. its so hot ! im so dizzy ! and nothing's really going well!

i actually took quite a few pictures yesterday but right now im too lazy to even load it off from my phone. jeez. but seriously 30 degrees at night really sucks. its night time and i was sweating like crazy !

haix.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

awakened early in the morning by a call from my course coordinator. somehow i'd get an interview in the afternoon. in the time between, i was thinking hard. so i got to school, was early so i had to wait a bit, and i saw ron o.o in the new bunch of freshies.

anyway, went in at 2.30, came out at 4pm o.o its like omg super long. talk talk talk, think think think. he said that theres a chance for me to be reinstated but its not very high cause of my results and everything. lowest possible gpa ..

So I've done everything I could, not really said everything I want(he did most of the talking) but, the future remains a mystery. wish me luck?


after that, i took a slow walk to th mrt station, stopping at A1 chendol to get a large cup of oreo chocolate. then slowly, i continued on my path. the sky was clear with little clouds and the sun shone bright with the wind blowing between the trees. while walking i was thinking back of all the memories i had, kinda nice. and before long i reached the end of the path already. it was nice (:


why am i feeling so dizzy..




so tired. i hate this weather. its so annoyingly hot!

anyway it was kinda retarded in the morning, meeting jinye @ pasir ris and .. lol my bus was behind hers. its like at th junction just nice red light then i see bus 15 go pass .. then quickly call her t tell her that lol! so we missed a bus and sat at th bus stop waiting and .. complaining ? hahah.

hmm saw quite a few familiar faces at school today, theres vanessa's classmate whose name i cant remember, eileen who said(if i remember correctly) :"wah you also come support design camp" hahah, then erm .. yingying whom i asked for help coz jinye is so blur. then erm .. oh sharmian or something, that freshie whom *someone* and *someone* and *many others* eyecandy.

got home and slept again. stupid weather made me so tired. anyway i went t th hospital with my dad later in th afternoon, it seems like his leg would be casted for another 2 weeks or so. haix. in my mind is like erm .. (i saw my dad's ic, since i had t help him register and everything) "maybe i should just go work instead, 3 siblings and a 51 yr old dad, excluding a irresponsible mother whos currently fighting a divorce". something like that was in my mind .. eh? haix.

my mind should be thinking more positively ! seriously.



i'm just pinning all my hopes in that letter. hope?

Sunday, April 12, 2009

the sentosa outing today was great, fun, memorable, though some things happened, but its still fun in overall. super tiring, im so non athletic but its like, quite okay i guess.

but right now i dont really have much mood left to blog. its like coming home quite happy, had a nice chat on the way back home too, but its like .. my dad fractured his leg, suddenly its just, so depressing.

thinking, thinking, chatting, thinking and others. all those things in my mind, does it matter?

so i told yihao:
G .N -Simple minded retard says:
i havnt really felt truly happy for .. i cant remember already hahah

that was after some time of thinking, so i smile so i laugh, deep in my heart, i dont really feel much of it.


i dont know why recently everything i see, hear, or whatever around me, just emphasizes on all the mistakes ive made.

sadly, there aint such thing as taking a break from life.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

for quite some time something has been troubling my heart. more like someone
but it has been settled, well atleast it has split into two different parts: that my heart feels and that i reject to having.

what is the most retarded way to like a person?
to know a person, find that person rather visually appealing, but feel nothing for that person, talk to that person by chance, somehow could get along and extend the conversation, converse with that person a couple of times and feel very free about it, think about things like having feelings for that person, deeply denying ever having it while trying to think of other things, then the thought of rejection caused you to think even more of that person, and ends up liking that person in a certain way, but hate it in the end.
retarded! or maybe its just retarded how easily i develop feelings

but in the end, it'd always just end up in this way: we can never be.

its disappointing, this is why I'd rather not have feelings. wont it be nice to just live freely, not worrying about such things called emotional bonds? though it would lose meaning like that of living for a person or whatever.. but its like i wont have to think so much when i am getting close to someone. oh and those uncommon times when someone just suddenly do something super random that most people wont do, like walking pass and ticking.

but even after deciding, the heart continues in the same momentum, seeing the hints that the person doesnt like and feeling the thorns of perspective truth(well you'll never know)



i think too much, time to go t my other blog and bleed out all these excess.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

I got this video from a good-ol-friend Glenn, seriously this really made me cry.. even though i said i would never cry(now freshie dont comment on this!) and .. i just want everyone to learn from Nick Vujicic.

If you fail, its not the end, it matters how you're gonna finish.
ARE YOU GOING TO FINISH STRONG ?




i'm kinda lazy to blog so much ! all those previous blog post are like .. pathetic luh.

anyway it was FOW and FOC! so many fun memories (: and our freshies just rocks ! (: those cute little freshies, and some annoying ones, really made my stay in FO a great one (: so i wanna thank all freshies for giving me such a great time of my life ! (: go freshies!

ive been quite depressed lately, cause ive failed maths twice, which also equals to expulsion from school. i dont wanna leave tp .. i wanna appeal! right now, TP feels like a second home to me, and .. the feeling of leaving home, REALLY SUCKS!

but anyway, i diddnt feel this bad, after having so many people to talk to and just have fun chatting about nonsense.

i wonder why suddenly my blog had so many visitors o.o



to my little freshie: Stand Straight, Face Front and Keep Moving Forward (: