Wednesday, February 25, 2009

holidays are boring, totally nothing to do =.=
i want to .. WATCH A MOVIE, slack SOMEWHERE else! erm .. dont feel like sleeping all day too.
jeez holidays are so boring.



and my left eye hurts, i think i cut my cornea while rubbing it so much.
darn.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Trust You by Yuna Ito.

Lyrics: (from gendou.com)
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away
You’re still always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain completely buried by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we’re still connected
I believe that we can meet again
I’m waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we’re together, we’re able to believe in each other
No, please don't let go



this song, from an anime thats about futuristic energy war, battle for eternal peace, battle to protect, etc etc. the war torn earth but this ending song, its .. i don't know how to describe (:

somehow, like the rest of the Gundam series, theres alot of LOVE in it;
notable couples:
Setsuna F. Seiei & Maria Ismail (weird relationship)
Allelujah Haptism & Marie Parfacy(aka Soma Peries)
Neil Dylandy & Feldt Grace (the first twin)
Lyle Dylandy & Anew Returner (the second twin after the first died)
Lichtendahl Tsery & Christina Sierra (died together)
Patrick Colasour & Kati Mannequin (pilot and commander)
Saji Crossroad & Louise Halevy (Lovers since High School, torn apart by the war)

but i think the top couple is still .. Kira Yamato & Lacus Clyne !


jeez ive been slacking off rather than supposingly studying for my last paper .. heeh

Sunday, February 22, 2009

omg so tired! trying to remember what happened on which day hahahs

work @ 10am, i had 2 hours of sleep, reading from previous post you can count how much ive slept in total lol anyway i was early for once ! its like i bought light breakfast and ate at the bus stop then just nice bus come, then later i bought chicken rice at harbor front int there and wanted t eat it before bus come but in th end th bus came after my 2nd scoop of it =.= rush on th bus and i was early .. like 9.16am check in and my shift starts at 10am. so i took my time t eat my chicken rice at th caffeteria then slowly take 20 mins to change, go t office still got time chat lol.

heh heh kinda slacky day, coz my job for th entire day is only t prep items for dream pool later which is later on in the evening, i had like erm .. 6 hours to get 400+ utensils and 100 glasses + 35 teacups+underliner lol! damn slacky. had enough time to go bug other people, do other crap and walk around slacking LOL!! anyway i was really insignificant, i do what i like coz all i do is for that dream pool thing while everyone else did the sai kang .. heeh. lunch time 30 mins, went down t eat with aung and hanlin then cheryl and geraldine came later. i slept during lunch break and geraldine was talking t me. later that we went up 15 mins late, and nobody noticed i was late, insignificant eh ? kinda good, slacking! so tired, actually fell asleep while doing work. geraldine said "i see you there wiping so slow then later see you not moving already, confirm sleeping lor" LOL!!

so tired! so much sia kang and during the dinner function, i kept swearing lol ! weileong was like hearing my complains everytime i go out collect drinks. dammit they kept asking for warm water and alot other drinks, like NON STOP !! then my table, right infront of stage, its super hard to reach there cause theres always performance and all the cameras at the stage and omg cant get pass the wall of humans crowding. the next table, irritating eat SO SLOW ! jeez. but at the table right infront of the stage, theres this pretty girl who looked very much like Yee Ping!(Venos FA) just abit older but surprizingly same surname! her lucky draw coupon wrote Carrie Tan, compared to Tan Yee Ping. maybe related? hahah! anw that table is damn nice, i always serve that table late due to the crap delays but they diddnt really mind, its like i served dessert 15 mins late or so .. but they still enjoyed it anyway. after that, irritating delay @ office, just for our cab forms bla bla bla bla bla. too tired already. had 12 hours sleep or so (: heeh but DAMN STILL VERY TIRED!! im such a complainer (:

heh heh me in the brazil apron the other day. looks so retarded

Saturday, February 21, 2009

damn tiring day, feels like dying now jeez.

1am in the morning, i found out that i have TWO papers later in the day, the fist at 9.30AM! ok so i cant resist slacking but started at around 4 when i saw the critical time running out. diddnt sleep entirely and went to school to take the paper, it was okay. after that i coudlnt stay awake already, went to the library to sleep and end up having a bad hair day. then at sports comm, i finished the mcq of the paper then the written answers, i think and had a major headache, so i slept hahah. later woke up for no reason and zhenlin walk by me and said "want sleep go home sleep la" even though he's no supposed to talk t anyone at all lol. left the exam hall submitting a near empty booklet, then made my way to harbour front already. met kahcheong and the erm .. i cant remember your name right now, on the bus and talk abit before taking mrt. slept abit hahah.

at outrum park int, i met faruz! long time no see already, been long since i last worked. we missed the shuttle bus and end up taking the sentosa tram, wasted 3 bucks. anyway talked crap along th way hahah, we reached there a few mins earlier than the punch-in time, but entered the meeting room late anyway. its omg we need t wear aprons. EH. VIP function buffet brazillian style. damn tiring, especially when lacking sleep and carrying that stupid heavy platter. ended work at 11 and went back first with a few other guys, we rushed to get onto the bus hahah. tried sleeping and bought macs for supper, my first meal? lol.

okay the nxt part, jinye would want to see it..

heh sadded stupid blogger wont load the pictures.

more crap starting at 10am. tired. blog next time hahah, loads of things to post on both blogs!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

hmm i cooked myself, for once, in a very very long time. its super simple! since i couldnt find much at home to cook. its like .. before using anything i'd have t check for its expiry date and all. kinda irritating lol. the result is very ugly but it taste awesome!! just kinda dry =X



jeez complicated family issues are irritating. just get divorced and over with.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

First of all, Happy Birthday JunYuan (:

we had some fun @ pasir ris park today, smashing 2 cakes into his face, getting caked by him, shooting him with watergun and all hahah. then after playing a day at pasir ris park, we went to eat dinner at bedok 85 there. first time eating there cause i diddnt go the other time. the food was quite okay, the hokkien mee sucked.

fun day, did loads of stupid things. was late with grace, detoured to toilet(we both enter female toilet) to fill up our water guns, then we shot junyuan after he blow the candles on th first cake hahah. chased around by him, got cake on my hair(eeew) jeez. grace too get it, it was hard t clean it off, compared to mine where i just wash my hair(at the female toilet again) while grace refill the guns.
seriously if the female toilet is available i would prefer using it, its way better than male toilets.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentines Day o.o
i played until 7am hahah! then slept until like 4pm lol.

anyway i thought the meeting time was 5pm and in the end i was late by 30 minutes, then i checked again, its 6pm, so in the end .. i'm early HAHAH!

jeez theres some problem uploading pictures to blogger. sadded =X the food was damn nice though ! my bake dory with spaghetti and mushroom sauce, the pasta is awesome but the dory is so so only, too salty already =x overall its really nice hahah.

oh yeah ! i played the punchbag thing @ timezone for the first time, i lost to chen chao by 35 points !! 8850 and 8885 = .= jeez. then we played for 2nd round, this time i barely scored 8500+, the second impact hurt my wrist alot and .. jeez. my bone feels numb again. but its fun (: i won on second round, cause chen chao MISSED! he hit the punchbag sideways and it missed the middle of the scale hahah.


and like that, valentines day passed mysteriously ..

Thursday, February 12, 2009

eh im feeling even more retarded today. past few days ive been pissed off over an error in my program, then i dozed off this morning, woke up and stared at my screen again, googling for some sort of solution, till i flipped to the next page of my lab notes and "Oh .. ==.=="
seriously. retarded.

ah for the first time ever i met gloria on the bus. its like after boarding someone seated suddenly call me out then i noticed her, if not i'll just walk behind and doze off. she said taht actually she saw me on th bus quite a few times already just that i was stoning, daze at nothingness hahah. jeez im so retarded =.=

ah so tired. actually fell into deep sleep while waiting for the toilet to clear out o.o lol.



i think my legs are getting more sucky.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Happy Birthday Krystelle !

heeh 2 hours sleep jeez. lucky tday was a short day. went back early and sleeppp. been getting free lunches recently hahah, after helping people with their programming.
still so tired. but i think twin is more, crazy girl diddnt sleep for 3 nights and going 4th. crazyy!

so anyway, life's been boring. im stuck between being myself(lazy) and not(submission tomorrow) and its just .. problematic .




hmmmmmm. couldnt wake up for network fundamentals tutorial. i set alarm at wrong time hahah, class at 10 i set at 9.30 =.= but anyway, i went t school later at 2 or so for lab then tut till 6 then .. zetten dinner (: quite bad attendance but was fun anyway (:

ate at TM Open Plaza, after we tabao all our food there. tracy came rather late and its like hardly anyone knows that shes in zetten. hmm went back abit earlier than the rest at like 9 or so then take bus t eunos with tracy, just talk crap luh. so long since i last chat with my gl also. anyway its damn funny (: oh and took the slow bus 854 home, damn its so cold!


wow someone actually noticed my walking habit. i tried very hard to conceal it. cool.

Monday, February 9, 2009

jeez so tired, slept at 7am and woke up at like 9+ .. haix. was gonna sleep earlier then i just remember i forgot something then chiong ar !!

connecting my phone to benson's laptop left a very irritating virus in my phone. damn. my 1 hour break, 10 minutes slack, 40 minutes deleting all those viral files and the remainder time, i cant even get a good sleep.

then later i just sleep on the long bus 39 back. yawns so tired .

Saturday, February 7, 2009

cheston's birthday bbq! dammit tiring, bbq till late then we went ehub cause we were bored, wasted 18 bucks on 1 hour+ of kbox(it was closing) and jeez. then i bowled for the first time! first round sucked, the impact force was so high and jeez sucks.
lesser impact force(judged by the sound of impact) = more energy transferred to kinetic
but it got abit better by second round, near soundless x) gotta say i have beginners luck (: i strike twice!! heeh heeh.

so anyway we went to macs to have short breakfast, actually only me eating. so tired hahah, then slept on th bus back (:

i make good bbq! wahahahaha AND I JUST ROCK IN CHEAT LUH HAHAH!! or maybe cause the other players are retarded LOL. oh and i finally got to sing SUPERMAN!! x) damn fun but very stressing on my throat =X






diddnt sleep for an entire night .. so tired now .. jeez exam in a few hours time still. im so dead.
anyway update later (:

& Happy Birthday Cheston (:

Thursday, February 5, 2009

so tired, i couldnt wake up for class. anyway in the end i reach school at 5+ and met up with them, chat abit then go tabao food from opposite school (:

took awhile, especially for bubble tea hahah. moved on to sports complex t eat our dinner. heeh everything grace says seems perverted hahah!! then hmm .. some identity stuff confirmation and just some talks about recent things and upcomming events. overall a fun time (: took cab t pasir ris with sajiv then take bus 39 back, kevin was on that bus too lol.

im lazy to blog today hahah, so tired! anyway,

Zhao Lin, take care, get well soon and all th best for your exam tomorrow (:
Grace, get well soon, tape it !!
Bernita, its been some time since we chat, almost forgot alot of things hahah! lets wait and see what the future brings (:

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

ah i slept the whole day at school. after failing to wake up for lab presentation @ 9am, then reaching at like 11am(just nice class end) then jeez. eat at design then slack at library. after that i decided t get MC and just slack, but it was raining so i went back to sleep LOL. wake up and about to leave school, met ches huda and erm .. if i remember his name is kenneth outside design school and slack with them, cancelled the thought of getting mc.

talk alot of craps hahah!! damn funny l o l ! anyway, later on its like .. huda wanna go bookshop but chips, then follow then later she go design school, walk walk until this splitroad then .. "huh?" lol stuck in between, followed cheston t library where kenneth(fishy) finally appeared. went t eat again at design school, and saw lijin and vanessa there again.

so i slept @ library while they study (well theres nth t study about and im tired) so .. jeez sleeping on my bony arm doesnt feel good. crappy. right now i want t be a BIT fatter hahah.


these few days have been very tiring, rushing and crapping and trying to slack while doing other stuff;
but it has been fun, feels really good when im not troubled by some things.
i like this feeling, but i cant keep it, i cant run away forever.





omg so tired. i overslept! and reached lab like 10 mins late and therefore started 10 mins late too, but i managed to complete it (: anyway its like, sleep for .. 3 hours or so ? ive been crazy sleeping so little these few days, its giving me mood swings! lol.

slept in lab after that .. like totally couldnt stay awake!! omg i think th lab facil is mad at me, coz i slept for like 1 hr 50 mins out of the 2 hours lab!! lol ! anyway its like do proj only. so tired. later at the other class, its like erm .. show th diff forms of teaching .. i wrote out how to bake a cake in details, step 1 starting from: Buy ingredients from supermarket. lol! then later go lab chiong proj =X jeez so troublesoe la web appt. stayed in lab until like 10, the lab tech guy chase us out lol, well he wanna go home but needs t lock. anyway i took bus 69 t bedok and slept on bus 854 back (: reach home at like 11.55pm. presentation coming! shitty formal wear with tie still. damn.

been eating odd meals, now im eating garlic bread for supper lol, so hungry after eating erm .. instant stuff all day.


HuiQi is Supposed to be doing her project now. heeh?

Monday, February 2, 2009

hmm. i diddnt sleep and so i was like dizzy in the morning hahah, and i was very early! well i diddnt sleep. anyway its like very unlucky too. planned on sleeping on the usually very empty bus 39 to pasir ris then take bus 15 to school, then its like, omg its so packed! then when alighting i found benson on the same bus hahah. anyway next, its really retatded, the first bus 15 that came, was totally full till it just skipped the stop, before the second one, this guy came up to us and ask if we're going to tp, cause he wanted to take cab and we all split, but before the cab came, the next bus 15 came. and ben and i couldnt get on, too full jeez. okay! next one, we wanted to take cab this time, the first cab .. someone infront ks-ed us! then second cab .. there was this girl in front of us looking at us then she waveeeeee.. jeez. and in th end th bus came even before a cab came, damn. unlucky? cause that bus would'hv made us late.

anyway since i was late, i skipped class, again. like ive never been to that class this year before .. hahah! then walk up t concourse with ben @ like blk 22 there then wanted t proceed t library n sleep while ben goes t class with another friend who was late. then, i heart my name being called, abit mis-pronounced but i guess its still my name, paused and turned, eh paige! sat there and watch her study, seriously i can be entertained by watching someone study lol! anyway it was quite fun chatting with her (: she had to go off at like 10, and i made my way to library.

played abit of facebook there hahah! then went t 4th floor t sleep. seriously, what are those sofa amde of?! some special material that makes my hair even harder than when i put wax! and my hair is like FLAT when i wake up! jeez. irritating. lab class after that then erm .. break? its like weird no tut today, waited till 6 then went t lab again t do proj, still got alot t do =X



once again, my jacket got gloria's scent on it, my old jacket has it too. and, i found out that wanyee has the exact same scent as bernita hahah. like doing project halfway then "eh whats that familiar smell.." heeh. i think im weird, remembering people by their scent.




hmm was getting sleepy until a moment ago, where something happened. yeah whatever. its a long day ahead, but somehow, it doesnt really bother me that much now.

hmm, i think jinye is gonna talk me out for all these non cheerful post all these days, but erm .. sorry =X that's just how it has been. i know i need some sleep =.=" its like im gonna have class at 9. but i havent been to that class since like forever.

Quote:
"The snow will fall each year in the same manner.
However, the snow will never be the same,
even in a thousand years."

im waiting for something that'll never come.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

met erwin in the morning to help him with his project, though it was almost afternoon when i reach. anyway we ate at kfc later. then took bus with badd to woodlands and met chenchao, then mark, then went to cityhall to meet grace, watch her performance.

okay for this moment im feeling better after visualizing myself facing the truth.

its been a long time since i last went to church, a few old faces i'd remember, but anyway, mark and i tried very hard not to be "lightbulbs", purposely walking distanced from chenchao and grace, then talking to others and putting them together. somehow, i feel that grace doesnt really like it, sorry grace.



right now im just very vexed. the things i refuse to accept.
i dont want to, and it just sucks.
the many things i want to say, but i refuse.
i refuse to do some things.
the truth just hurts eh,
i feel very helpless anyway, i cant even do something to improve the situation.
i want to scream this out, somewhere else.