Wednesday, April 30, 2008

venos chalet !! i only packed my bag like erm .. monday morning !! wahahaha anyway its like i complained that entire day !! complain complain complain, class borring, bag heavy, food not nice, bla bla bla hahah !! dont know why i just kept complaining that day lol. anyway it was quite boring luh, so many classes but good thing it ended abit early, bought prisc and huiwen's file then like wait for fitri after school. castillo and yanti sorta stuck t me after sch =.= i was like waiting with fitri for that girl she likes lol, and those 2 extras were thought i was waiting for prisc =.= lol !! managed t shake them off when fitri and i went t have a snack at ITAS, 1st time going there hahah. well saw th girl fitri likes, shes rather small size but quite good looking hahah. anyway later went back t meet cheston and like waited another hour while i forgot what we did =.= anyway went back t meet th rest of them at th mushroom after watchin cheston play bball, priscilla was there in a dress O.O !! its like quite casual and simple, but definately looks nice on her ^^ in th end we waited quite some time cause like maybelle had t finish her stuff and brandan was late.

went over t th chalet and like i carried maybelle's bag, its like heavy and th strap is like .. small so its like after i took it off, there are lines on my shoulder O.O" cause we reach early, th girls sorta walk around and its like 5 girls walking infront freely and 3 guys behind carrying loads of stuff =.=" took th shuttle bus t aloha loyang and walked all th way to bungalow 16, was rather far =\ anyway went into th room and like th aircon so nice !! xDD anyway later still went out and like i saw th view of th sea, its like so nice luh and then fion and i walked t sit at th picnic table t look at th sea and like kana th 'woops woops' crap =.= wth . later we go prepare th stuff for th marinate. its like i peel th onions and fion cut them, my eyes got irritated till like totally red, fion like pro sia not a single tear !! i was like looking at her see got tears anot and its like totally clear luh, anyway fion's eyes are rather big O.O" hahahs. th macs like order alot luh !! 2 delivery men had t come lol. anyway we sat around in a table t eat, th fries wasnt nice hahah. after eating we had some games and like th fan spoil and was damn scary !

anyway after that its like we go into th room t tell ghost story, th aircon was like so cold luh, we off th lights and like so dark !! was scary =\ anyway apple was like lie down on th bed sleeping or sth, and like see her there so cold i pass her my jacket, seems like she enjoyed using my jacket lol ! later sophia borrow it and like she wear th hood too. some of th ghost story was like really scary!! especially about doppleganglers, those things are like .. signs of death and like .. damn scary la .. anyway after that we had a very short night walk, since we had th stories until so late, we missed th actual night walk, its like just walk over t bungalow 11 coz theres a damn stench there. rather boring hahah. later walk back then like bored, played mahjong and like crappy hahah, anyway later i go into th room t check then changyong passed me this cup of drink, it was actually a vodka mix. i just drank it anyway, later after i finished it, he passed me another full cup of it =.=" after that i was like getting headache frm th alcohol =\ tried t sleep but th headache irritate me, then like later fungyong dominated th bed ! i have like no space t sleep =.=" in th end was like super tired luh.



DAY TWO !
went t school with sky, since we like almost same time start class. its like of all places t walk, we walked in th middle of th road =.= hahah its like i've never really talked that much with him before lol. later i slept on th bus, was like just doze off luh, huiwen was actually on th same bus, i diddnt notice at all until after we got off th bus, i saw a very familar face, then like while she cross th road, i could see more clearly so i just shouted her name. its like walk and talk with her till th mushroom there, then i went for class. since i diddnt really sleep much for th past 2 days, my eyes were like serious panda lol ! she saw me and like 'omg' or someting. anyway i was like keep doze off in school luh ! so damn tired !!

after that i went th chalet right after school, thought of sleeping when i reach there, its like while walking in from th bus stop, a taxi stopped and like yujuan called me t get in. its like brendan, kim and yujuan took taxi t th chalet from somewhere nearby hahah. later coz th room where i left my stuff was locked, i was with yujuan and kim in th other room, brendan took a bath. borring luh cant sleep =.= its like crap around then later i walked out t buy poker cards, damn la its like 2.50 for a pack of cards =.= quite a waste when i own so many pack of cards but i diddnt bring it ..

later played this game of cards, its like choose 2 numbers then a forfeit related to sucking, licking or kissing, then give out th cards and th 2 ppl who hav th cards would hav t do th forfeit. so i lost my first kiss to huiqi.. lucky la atleast it was a girl !! i'll die if i lose my first kiss t a guy !! then its like cy is damn disgusting luh.. anyway later i got another kiss .. it was rather wet coz we were supposed t do a tongue flick but couldnt do it, so it was just a kiss but coz we stuck out our tongues prior t it, our lips are actually wet .. omg la !! anyway those kisses were like only a peck on th lips, not really like real kiss .. later in th evening there was a 2nd round, i almost took nicholas' first kiss ! LOL !!! gd thing he moved back hahah, THERE WAS NO CONTACT ! NOTHING GAY HAPPENED !! wahahaha. dexter was quite lucky, but in th end he suay until cannot suay LOL !!!

well finally it was like bbq time, i diddnt eat anything for th day cause i was late and had t skip lunch ! th vodka and fatique is like making me dizzy and like headache luh, when priscilla arrived, kim was like 'hey gareth ! look whos here !' lol !! so i just walked over and said hi, short conversation before i went th table there, dizzy already =.= had some food and like later go back t th room th lie down, dizzy luhh. diddnt really notice prisc was there too hahah. anyway later at th verox grp photo, prisc and bev was like infront of me. the its like lol ! i diddnt notice bev dyed her hair =.= after th bbq it was like hot topic luh !! every1 was talking about her hair and its like .. omg la i diddnt notice it at all !! im so zai !! xDD

well after bbq there was like play some games, i have commoner luck !! its like play th card game of asshole, i get bad luck when im ranked super asshole but my cards are like damn gd when im ranked commoner lol !! anyway we had some small ghost stories and like .. th dopple thingy again .. haix that one scares me everytime. later cheston and i went th other room th sleep, its like th same room as night 1 but this time it was apple and huiqi sleeping in there. during night 1 apple slept like cute luh !! its like she makes this 'muuuuuu' sound very softly then she turns ! hahah cute luhh !! my jacket surely nice to sleep with hahah. anyway this time apple seems so tired that she was snoring =.= quite loudly too, maybe coz i was just beside n its quiet at that time. so after that cheston slept on th floor with 2 blankets, then later i slept beside huiqi's bed, its like i lie down on th lower right corner, like sleeping on a table. since huiqi is like sleeping to the left and like its cold. but she sleep until th blanket is like only covering her legs, i sorta pull it up so that it covers her fully. that pig, sleep until so hard to wake up, but her alarm tone is this song, its quite nice !! its like super loud and she just continue sleep =.= in th end she finally woke up at around 7am, hahah sleepyhead must be very tired !

well after that i went t eat breakfast with nic and cheston, mac breakfast aint really that filling but atleast its quite nice. later like take bus t school and we werent late ! cheston thought we would be late hahah. anyway its like i doze off in class =.= all 4 tutorials and i was like daze into nowhere and doze off =.= freak tired la, after that theres like extra class and im like jeez 100% not paying any attention. anyway after that i just go back home, th nostalgia of th yishun area, was like in th east area for th past few days. reach home and like take shower, check some stuff then take a 5 hr nap and yet still feel tired after that.



monday, april 28th was Jean's birthday, so.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JEAN !! sorry couldnt send you th gift on time =\

Sunday, April 27, 2008

hmm nothing much happened tday but chatting with huiwen sure let me know alot more about prisc and her ! well part of th conversation, sorta mentioned abit about jean, for quite some time now i've felt rather bad, gin said that theres like a 80% chance that she actually likes me but its like .. i cant return th feelings she have, even though she can treat me as a best friend, tell me so much, i cant really do anything .. and i just sorta feel quite bad for that . i couldnt really tell her much about whats going on, nor could i ever give her access t this blog, sorry jean ! just sorta dont wna risk hurting you =\



my heart is always getting second thoughts, feeling bad for so many stuffs .. =\




jeez forgot to post yesteday, was so tired at th mass conversation until i was snoozing already during th end of th chat .. sleepy hahah !!

morning wake up and like soo tired hahah, chat abit with jiaying and cheston hahah, i sorta forgot th feeling i had th day before, felt so much better after my sleep xDD later i just had t finish my lunch before going out, so i was late by 10 min, actually its like 25 mins cause im supposed t meet cheston at 2.15 =\

meet hakim and CKM first, then they go eat lunch and finally we walk to th pool area. its like dumb lol walk pass traffic junction then after red man cheston say that no need cross, we ran back =.=" LOL !! hahah next we reached and like nic and cheston played first if nt wrong, when i played with nic he damn damn suay la, its like a damn easy shot can bounce off hahah !! playing with me = damn suay ! lol !! i think i scored more white ball than anything else lol !! hakim at first dont want play then i irritate him like hell 'play leh play leh play leh .. ' continuously for countless times, only stopped t take a deep breath then continue xDD wahaha true irritance made him play =PP anyway he quite pro lol

after that just go back and then theres like mass convo ! lol its been quite some time since we had one hahah. well after a short conversation with huiwen, things sorta changed O.O" man how could i ever do things without her helping .. thanks !! really hahah. hmm, after that its been like quite some time since i've talked t prisc freely, th past few days theres like so many extras, and i only wanted us t be friends first. hahah atleast things got better ^^



even thought i like you doesnt mean we cant be friends ^^ and unlike what most of th rest think, it doesnt have t progress that fast ! =) -jeez so sleepy

Friday, April 25, 2008

skip the classes which i was late for, skip what happened after class and just come right to the point.

it just was not too long ago, i dont know why but i just wanted t call her. after all that happened i couldnt really get a good chance t apologise to her and say the things i want to say. at first i got into her voicemail like twice but after getting some snacks i called again and we talked abit, she got disconnected but later call her and she said that shes coming online. so we just continued to chat there.

well after 3 days i finally know her answer, i already guessed it from the start, i just diddnt want to believe it until i hear it from her. why i already know, its not by tell tale facts or anything, its just the kind of luck i have in my life, maybe i'll talk about it in my new blogskin. but anyway even though i expected it, i still felt kind of sad when she said "seriously i think you could find someone much better for yrself bah" . well i hope that we could still stay as friends after all that happened.. take care prisc !!













just earlier today i was thinking about it. that i should get more serious and not be so hesitant, i was trying so hard to deny my "Fate", trying to believe a different future would come. all along i've been thinking about quite the same thing, i should really speak up. i wanted to call her and talk to her, tell her that i really like her with my own voice. but when i heard her somehow sad and just distressed voice, i just couldnt say it anymore. im quite useless and weak aren't i ..

after hearing it, my heart was shaking so badly, i could just feel my heart crying so badly but my mask is trying so hard to put up a front, apologising to her for all th trouble i caused and i just tried so hard to make it sure that its really fine. priscilla, your voice recently just makes me somehow sad .. i dont really know why . i dont know that i'll find someone better but im already very glad to have met someone like you.

it just hurts so much more to put up a strong font when behind this screen, im actually crying while from what others see me chat, im like still as cheerful as if nothing bad happened. it just always hurt that extra much to be strong. hahah chatting cheerfully again xDD

well my shirt is dried !! hahah my heart was crying, but after i heard th song Sen no Yoru Wo Koete (english: Beyond a thousand nights) i just couldnt stop crying. the feeling of my tears roll down my cheeks and then it somehow made my shirt rather wet. it tasted really salty =\ well these are th tears for th first time i confessed to a girl ! i was like so hesitant anyway. it was really so pathetic of me to like a person and yet be so hesitant. ouch eye pain !!

anyway, thanks to all those who tried to help, and for those who messed all these up, i dont really blame you people. for those who just had to irritate me by using her name in everything, i really dont hate any of you. and for those who wanted us to be together, sorry ! and for Priscilla, im really glad to have met someone like you !! thank you.


and with the tears dried, let a new chapter of my life begin then ! even though it doesnt feel the same anymore, i once said that i dont want to hurt anyone anymore, but once again my naive and hesitant self hurt someone again, i am .. im really truely sorry ! and with the bottom of my heart, i wish you happiness !


i knew this heart of mine isnt ready for something like this. it shouldnt have melt and soften out. but i am glad .. even if it really hurts alot. Memoria~




messed up day. though quite fun at class taking pictures using castillo's laptop camera. maybe i'll upload it next time. after school dismiss early, registered for the swim team, followed nicholas t library, saw grace 3 times but she was too tired t notice me, saw jiaying at th classy restaurant near bookshop, then waited like 40minutes with nic at th mushroom for priscilla.

she appeared with 2 other of her friends from culinary, same course as nic, so atleast they could get along cause course-mates. i was like dont know what t say t prisc and like erm.. darn just plain void between us la. later on th bus got like scolded by nicholas .. well cant be avoided anyway. its like nic want me t be with her more so like jeez it was so quiet, hard t talk since theres like tension between us and th other 2 guys are unknowns. at th food court i just had t sit beside her. ... ...

after that chat awhile at th food court, its mostly them talking anyway. walk around cause prisc wanted t buy mothers' day gift, i was looking for jean's birthday card. told nic that its a card for my best friend so he also think that it would b good for me t make it myself. anyway i forgot t buy th materials for th card anyway. later my hand is like near is limit, it freezes easily and its like almost all purple already. and my wrist hurt from carrying my books. after walking a few rounds, finally go back t school. its like quite quiet between us luh, dont really know what t say anyway.

met yujuan at bus stop, later like we all were at th mushroom. jeez, nothing much good happened anyway. after some time its like huiwen appeared. somehow 'saved' haha. anyway in th end she diddnt go t dinner with huiwen, instead they joined us for dinner with th rest of venos, took bus t th S11 food court or something for dinner, at first it was nic, kim, yujuan, cheston and i in th table, but later cheston gave his seat t huiwen and its like they placed prisc in th seat beside mine. totally stuck situation la. we diddnt really talk much anyway, wait did we even talk .. bought dinner, listen t huiwen's stories and like laughed abit. nic and kim actually had this point where by if i had a camera in hand, it'll make a super nice photo.

later when they go off, they sort of forgot about their books and i just took it and ran outside. sorta quite a scene after i return .. diddnt really say much outside anyway. stuck there in th group, follow them go find tracey opposite of cpf building and like finally went off with cheston, cy and bev. took different buses but chat with cheston abit before going off. couldnt really sleep on bus, too much dumb thoughts i guess.





note to th current 3 ppl who i have given access :
this area that comes after loads of spaces usually is my own feelings. its why this is put as a private blog.

somehow i can just feel th distance between us. nic is quite right that im a loser. couldnt really get anywhere close t you. jeez maybe i just have t put more of my mind into it. sorry priscilla! i know im quite of a dissapointment. feel so bad for dragging you into this mess of mine, sorry.

idea of my new blogskin came when i was drifting in my thoughts, upcomming blog title: colors of my life.


theres so much to say, guess it might be uploaded another time. im just tired i guess.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

hahah borring day today in school. its like 1st class start at 12, went abit earlier t buy th maths book but its out of stock, so just place order. later then go class and was totally borring, its like primary sch english .. damn crappish =.=" anyway had like lesson on quad equations and learn a new way t solve it. later then had comm prog. quite fun fooling around with th codes hahah, fairly easy t understand ^^

anyway after class, went t collect th book but still no stock, later went t library 4th floor t meet nicholas, diddnt know th rest of venos also there, well not all, just like a few GLs, they were like talking crap joking around hahah, take picture of jolene's matric card and then hide her IC . i paid for th chalet, $18 in full cash hahah. later cause we were hungry, went t mensa2 t have a slight snack, th takoyaki there aint nice =\ anyway later we went t th mushroom t meet up with th rest of venos !

its been some time since so many venosians gathered .. chat chat and just walk over . thought we would b walking over t TM but like stop halfway at th coffee shop. borrowed junyih's phone t msg prisc hahah, sad she couldnt make it but sorta also relived (t be revealed soon) lol. its like venos took 11 tables !! 9 lined together and then 3 more where most of th GLs are hahah. though some of us had t leave early, it still left us with around 30+ venosians there. i order th ban mian(board noodles? hahah) and like it came super late !! some unlucky guy had bird poop drop on his hair .. super suay luh its like no visibile flying birds in th sky !!

anyway while i was msging, fion saw me and like sorta said that she has th same phone, then like i said its junyih's (revealing here ! darn =\ ) and like junyih say that i was using it t msg priscilla, then lucas shouted that i like prisc and like junyih followed. then its like th entire venos was shouting out my name and prisc .. ahhhh !! damn paiseh la . si lucas !! jeez freaking paiseh laaaa . that fitri like shout damn loud sia !! lucky angie was there too or i would have revealed th th entire crowd that he likes angie !! anyway he went off early and just nice angie too, so i was like 'orhhhh' hahah !! nothing much happened really . later just msg prisc abit before i finished my noodles then like go back t TP with th rest of them.

still like damn paiseh cause they keep speak about it .. damn sia .. ahhhhhh !! well i couldnt deny it when they shout it out, since i really like her .. well played some games and then th group of them was like playing truth or dare, like i enter only they know that i'll pick truth =.= anyway its like everyone just had t say their eyecandy lol ! since th dare is really really retarded, its like ask some stranger for number in a damn retarded way .. its like anyone would rather reveal eyecandy rather than do that crap . well seems like lots of guys like kimberly !! hahah lucas, junyih and kenneth all 3 actually like kim O.O" and of course, i said priscilla hahah . anyway we went off at around 9, after knowing th eyecandy of every1 who played. took bus with lucas to TM, freak bus driver drive so slow !! lucas bought his shoes then later we go off liao. take bus back and i fell asleep on it hahah . sorta tired abit bah, so nice to sleep !!

well after i reach home and came online, loads of conversation started about priscilla .. walao paiseh lah !! im borned shy and like ... diao ...

in th end prisc came online !! i was like telling her about th story and like erm .. well i wanted t tell her in person but anyway, i confessed t prisc that i like her, well no point hiding it since she'll know it eventually for th majority of venos knows .. hahah both of us was like freaking shy luh .. well.. Tuesday, April the 22nd of 2008, is th first time i, Gareth Ng, have ever confessed t a girl ! it sorta made both of us super shy after that and like .. speechless !! anyway i dont really know her reply hahah .. later lya invited yujuan, atikah, beverly, kimberly, prisc and i just to say goodnight ... was like super bad decision laaa !! left me th only guy and prisc in th same conversation with th girls who were like asking so much about It !! damn speechless luh so in th end we tried so hard t change th subject !! that bev .. just dont wna let us change subject, but in th end managed with th topic about korean thingy, kim is half korean !! hahah.

talk talk talk and one by one go off already, so was like chatting with prisc till not so long ago . now prisc should be somewhere in her bed already ? hahah anyway sweet dreams priscilla !








well prisc mentioned that we've only know each other for quite a short time, and its quite true hahah, only for around 3 weeks.
but anyway, i like her for who she Is, it diddnt really matter how long ive know her or what kind of person she really is, all i know is what i see and that shes really a very nice person ! even though she looks pretty good, i like her for her personality more than her looks. well i've confessed and feels like much better, atleast knowing that i've said it out ! no regrets !! hahah.

well whats left would be her answer .. nomatter what she chooses, i think i'll be contented ^^ getting t know someone like her is already quite a feat ! and nomatter what i will stand by her !

its been a very very embarassed day but its also very memorable ! this seems t put alot of stress on her .. sorry !!


Aishiteru Prisc!
it has really been memorable ..

Saturday, April 19, 2008

freshie week zero day 3 !! morning sorta no need t go school so early and like after that i sorta forget which class t go t. in th end i waited outside th LT and lyan saw me and said hi. later like go in, if not wrong do some cheers and like lol ! he got sabo again =.= anyway i volunteered t be th cheer leader, since its quite fun anyway hahah. later like cheers and getting ready. in th end we all went t sports com like quite late, stood infront of th crowd.

since i was all th way at th front, sorta saw prisc in th games . after th 3rd game or sth i borrowed castillo's phone t msg her hahah. den like msg Go HSS !! hahah. anyway, i was like an attraction t ants, my shoe is like full of ants !! and i was rather shocked when prisc replied why th ants keep coming hahah, 'you're too sweet' omg that made me like erm .. shy !! hahah . well castillo's phone was out of batt and like couldnt msg her anymore =\ but i was fun ! even though engine and HSS diddnt win any of th major awards, both did quite well, especially HSS which is like a totally new school ! GO HSS !! (actually xiuzhen asked me t cheer for business too, but instead i cheered for HSS hahah)

so after that was like debrief, i was like sweeping ants off my shoe while walking t th LT and in LT i look off my shoe and found a freak load of ants !! spent quite some time removing those pest from my shoes .. anyway we werent dismissed so early hahah. by th time i go there, no more venos ppl at th mushroom alr but yihao and lucas saw me and we went t th spots com together for th jam and hop. at there, i used yihao's phone t msg prisc instead hahah. th jamming sucks (seriously) and prisc came late (no need hear that crap) and like we waited for her t come in. oh yeah !! when she was up there, i noticed someone !!! an AS girl who sticks with prisc .. guess who ?? hahah HUI WEN !!

but anyway i was like freaking shy t talk t them .. and i cant dance (that was my 1st time in a jam and hop thingy) and so i was like looking around at how others dance and just do how they do it. i was like looking at how huiwen danced (she dance quite well !!) and like copied some moves but its seriously weird copying moves from a girl !! anyway when i saw huiwen, it she looks at me and somehow i got this feeling that she want me t dance with prisc (both of us cant dance) and later like yihao keep push me into th circle .. ahh my 1st time hopping !! anyway, in th end i did dance with prisc, huiwen pulled her into th center of th circle then yihao pushed me in t dance with her .. ahh !! jeez i was abit panicky.. but its quite fun with prisc hahah ! anyway later like chicken dance with th venos peeps after th jam and hop den we went off already. i was using yihao's phone t msg priscilla as usual den later at th mushroom there prisc replied and yihao shouted 'gareth ! your stead replied!' and like wtf ?! prisc was actually just beside !! and he like refered prisc as "my stead" like OMG shes right there !!! anyway i like skip th commotion and faster went on, said goodbye t prisc and huiwen (i shouted wrong name, shouted huimin then later i correct it t huiwen) sry huiwen !! just too damn shy t talk t you ... sryy !

later take bus with lucas and got lost ... sorta take wrong side and we went t th middle of nowhere !! then that stupid bus driver !! we at th reverse lane waiting then th bus just rush pass us like WTF ?! its not like th bus was that full anyway . DAMN U BUS DRIVER !! anyway after that lucas and i were like swearing like hell =.= in th end we take cab back t th interchange den juz nice my bus arrived hahah

Thursday, April 17, 2008

freshie week ZERO ! day 1 was rather boring, since its like only me a few other guys who are like high and fun, and i couldnt get into th regetta T.T anyway its like some get-to-know-each-other-more games lol. after that took bus with adrienne(she dont want t take bus alone=.=) and like later just go back, and went th trouble t buy takoyaki and just nice grace called me and ask about some stuff. later got back, chat abit, get some info and decided t go t school with grace th next morning !


DAY TWO !
good thing i asked nicholas t wake me up in th morning or im so gna oversleep hahah ! well i went t meet grace early in th morning, i was around 5 minutes late. later grace went t get something t eat and bought me a drink xD thanks !! anyway we just chatted while waiting for a bus t come, its so crowded ! we missed a bus cause its too full

anyway we managed t squeeze into th next bus, it was so crowded that both of us diddnt tab our cards hahah ! well i had t stand on th stairs throughout th journey and puts me at around her shoulder, and i felt erm .. th feeling of being at someone's shoulder, makes you wna lean on it .. well i cant really do that anyway, it'll seem weird hahah but somehow i just get that feeling hahah.

got off th bus, walked t th other side of th interchange and took th other bus t get t school. since we're early, there arent much people so we sorta got seats ! somewhat sat next t her and helped her with her test, suprisingly.. her chinese is rather good ! and she reads really fast too !! well we managed t finish th test just before we got off th bus. i forgot wheres TCC so we just walked t business school. met a mentor that brought us to TCC which was at th end of engine school =.=" anyway Grace was like saying about how she should have wore jeans instead hahah, rather cute xD anyway, i left after shes done there and went t th bus stop when adrienne called and said she'll be a little late, then i saw xiuzhen at th bridge hahah

sorta chat abit with her, join in th lil fun there (quite some time since i last saw her wor !) and later just went t meet adrienne and guide her t her block/LT before going t my own. mass dance in th morning ! entire engine school so big.. like not much space for mass dance but still rather fun, saw quite a few venosians !! later just went back t LT for lunch and meet our CP and finally get our timetables, not maticulation cards though.

anyway later we learnt th cartoon dance, went t th TCC for some performance and er speech by engine directors before ending with performance and cheer from th FAs. went back t LT and instead of doing th dance for th other team, i went t make th flag. thought i was running late so i just assign someone t help me finish it before running all th way t th mushroom t meet th rest of venos.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMOS THE GL !! anyway went t TM for dinner with th rest of them, nic had pizza !! was like standing at pastamania wit nic and getting super hungry from th fragrance in there .. well cant pangseh hahah. later we all go eat together with th rest of venos. diddnt know huiwen was there !! sorry sorry. anyway we diddnt get t listen t th story about TOK CHENG !! sad sad cause keep get interupt. anyway took a few pictures and helped them take a few pictures too. later just went home with nic. chat abit then we slept on th bus hahah. oh yeah !! nic bought new earpiece hahah.



anyway its been quite some time since i last met grace, she'hv sure gotten darker and abit more frackles but still pretty and nice as usual ^^ well i still cant forget th day we met on 6th april 2007 !! hahahs. just abit sad that we go th different schools (grace is business sch, im engine sch) but atleast we're still in TP !

Sunday, April 13, 2008

70+ contacts online, and here i am looking, thinking .. i thought i've made loads of friends, now im thinkin all over again .. dont know where these thoughts came from, dont know why it hurts so much inside.

i should just stop lying to myself. this smile which i always put on my face, just aint feelin like one.

and i really thought that ive made new friends, kept better memories, damn. who am i lying to. i think i hope too much. why . i still dont know why im feelin this .

Thursday, April 10, 2008

hmmms.. diddnt really feel like going t th workshop actually but i msg adrienne like 4am in th morning of th first day(monday) that im going then like later at 7.30 i reached woodlands interchange (hahahs diddnt sleep that night)

slept abit on th bus and reached TP, was quite surprised when we were welcomed at th entrance, later also at th sports comm. checked some stuff, register and finally, im in VENOS !! day 1 was rather blunt, introduction games and such. oh yah, after th assembly, i was sitting behind this girl that looked totally like kerensa !! (height too) hahah, found out that her name was Hui Ting on th 3rd day.

jeez, couldnt remember th names at th games, well saw this pretty girl there O.O" only knew her name started with a 'B' hahahs . lunch was great, talked with a few GLs and later we had station games, rather tirering walking so much, but it was still fun ^^ made a friend for that day, Nicholas, well also th first number i got from FOW. went t eat dinner with adrienne that night, choonyi and he xing appeared, oh yeah, forgot t return adrienne's ez-link card after that =.="


Day 2 :

went t return adrienne's card early in th morning, then rush t tp and was late by 23minutes, even after i took taxi =.= well day 2 was quite fun, mass dance in th morning. my partner was a female GL whose name i couldnt remember then, hahah sorta nervous, happens around girls =\ hahah holding th hand of a girl and run around during th dance.. jeez that felt weird but its fun xDD well after that we hand th chicken dance, still with that GL and like after 1 round, we would all form a circle and hold on t each other, ahh getting so close t a girl !! jeez that sure felt weird ! esp when getting held by her near my hips, abit above it only, i held her by th shoulder though, mayb cause im taller than her hahahs.

lunch time !! chat around, that GL was there and she had a name test, i sucked at that. well i got scolded(more like teased) for not remember her name, but after that i found out that her name is Xiuzhen !

after lunch we had t prepare for th performance night. oh yeah !! i sabo nicholas !! made him go perform lol ! than later th rest of us not performing was like just randomly pair up and i couldnt remember my partner, dont think shes from verox anyway. hmm.. prisc was like pro actress !! totally shocked by that scene ! hmm anyway we had station games after that, was fun ! learn quite alot of stuffs and we did quite well. after station games we had a final prep for th performance night. well me, ken and 2 girls cheated on th pairs, ken went with 1 of his friends (cant remember th name) and i paired up with er .. i think her name is Yu Juan or something. in th end we had no clue of whats happening lol ! well atleast Venos went up last. th performance was like funny hahah ! th 'gay' partners due t th dumb cupid who hit wrong was like almost going into a 'R21' scene when th 'perfect' couple of nicholas and michelle try t convince th 'pro' cupid. well it ended quite well. th final cheer on th stage was scary coz th entire stage was shaking.

anyway we had dinner after that and nicholas and i was teasing cheston when we were going home, about michelle hahah since cheston talked about her. well lucky nicholas !! i sabo him and he got a cute girl t dance with, got hugged and er .. dont know whats next xD hahahs, best sabo ever. on th way back, i found out that Nicholas was Zhu Xin's classmate lol ! slept pretty early that night.


Day 3:

th most fun day ever !! wet games ! well rushed out in th morning, forgot t bring my phone so went back home halfway =.= then later got on bus and nic was sleeping on it lol ! he diddnt notice i was there until after we got off and buy stuff at 7-11.

we were like 2 minutes late hahah and had a akward welcomming, later we just sat in. had some minor preperations and briefing before we set off t th wet games ! out first station was playin captain's ball with water baloons, i missed when shooting th goal (water baloons sure felt different t throw) and had t sit on one hahah, even my full weight couldnt burst it until i start jump on it. hahah Nicholas(GL) sat on 2 baloons. i scored th first goal, prisc scored th second. well its bad standing at th front line when they pored water down, i was like super wet after that. hmm noticed sth, that girl(whose name started with B) had hair extentions O.O" hahah can only see it with we hair, since i was standing behind her only.

after at th next station, we were supposed t pull a bucket of water out without touching, so all th guys (only 6 of us T.T) and t take off our shirts (embarassing!) infront of like .. everyone =.=" and tie it together t form a rope or sth t pull th bucket, well we spiled it at th final point but th bucket was out anyway. go verox ! hahah cause we spilled it, everyone else had t roll over th spilled water, except th guys since we weren't wearing any shirts. but later we still got wet when th GLs splash water on us(man my hair just dried! )

next was t transport water from 1 bucket t another and like th girls used their hair and th guys took shoes t carry th water. heex quite fun hopping over and later, we got splashed again =\

next was t th swimming pool ! th most fun event and th wettest too ! th games was like first pair up, do 10 rounds of couple spin, throw th water bomb and later catch one. lastly duck walk t th finishing line t put th water bomb. Nicholas missed th first bomb so we went back, i threw th second one and scored ! hahah nic had t sit on th bomb xD well after th game, we had a big splash ! th GLs took buckets of water from th pool and splashed on us, i got 2 full buckets at first and 1 more in th end. pris was like lucky i was standing behind her, entire bucket on me and she only had a lil splash, but anyway after that, everyone just had to be wet. th lucky ken who wasnt splashed got a full bucket instead ! hahah. it was soo coold. later th FAs was splashed too ! held by th hands and legs they splashed hard lol ! hmm after all th spashing, we guessed th oracle, Val again but it wasnt her. anyway cause she wear a red(actually orange) bra, we said it like 'verox are verox, oracle are oracle, we are th verox, is red bra th oracle?' hahah ! we had t wash away th chlorine water after that at th pool's showers.

later we went back t th sports complex and waited for lunch, chat around at first hahah. during lunch time, Nicholas(GL) asked me, Cheston and Nicholas(freshie) about our eye-candies so far in th FOW. i sabo Chestion, said that his eye-candy is Michelle hahah ! was rather funny and then later nic(freshie sorta agreed in th fun) later nic passed his turn saying that he'll say it later but it was left me. so i just had t bomb someone and i answered 'Xuizhen' then Nicholas(GL) was like asking 'GL? then freshie ? how about freshie?' something like that. so i just had t bomb someone and i said 'th girl 2 spaces t my left' it was actually Her anyway, Cheston later then said that her name was Beverly or something. we got our FOW shirts after we finished our meals and went t change into them. after that we played a game of Xi Nui Nai(wash milk) and its fun hahah, quite exciting t play that. later as we go back t th hall of th sports com or sth, we had t clean up and i found Michelle's land something, more like a tag or sth luh. forgot th term and i passed it t Cheston t let him hav th honor of returning it t Michelle hahah.

after that we had a briefing for another game, one of th starting part, we did a request and 1 of th FA had his leg hair pucked out O.O" poor guy going hairless alr hahah ! then a girl had t wear a spongebob boxers =.=" Amos stuffed 5 bottle caps into his mouth, we walked backwards for 2 minutes, counted 7 vending machines in 4 languages, did th para para dance, perfomed th programmer's dance, sang 'under th sea' with another empire, lie down on floor, Chelton played stare game with a FA, and some other stuff including singing a song hahah. after that we went t th field t play th Final Clash. a total of 6 teams consisting of all 5 empires and a team of all sub comms played. sub comms was instantly taken out together with Accion and Phantos. leaving Komez, Ferto and us, Venos !! Komez was taken out later and Ferto backstabbed us and whack our lolipop. it was still standing but just wet. later it was left us and Ferto. its like th entire crowd was cheering for Venos ! and for once i moved t join th attackers. during th final attack, we totally smashed Ferto's lolipop until there was like nothing left =.= but Ferto won cause they smashed a very tiny hole on our lolipop first =.=" well atleast we had fun ^^ after that we all went back t th sports com and settle down. looked at pictures taken through all 3 days and we cheered t th pictures of venos.

scores were revealed, Phantos placed 5th and they still cheered hard ! Accion placed 4th and we cheered for their effort, when th 3rd place was announced, everyone was so excited, it was KOMEZ !! all th GLs were so excited cause it means that we are top 2 ! we th final result was revealed, Ferto won and venos cheered for them, th rest of th empires cheered for them too ! well in th end, Venos placed 2nd, but 2nd is better than nothing xD and we also won th Best Created Empire award or something, it means that th freshies and GLs got together th best ^^ go Venos ! we had a final mass dance after that, i partner with this girl whose name i dont know hahah, was fun and still, i made th same own mistakes =.=" and its th chicken dance next ! Xiuzhen was like beside me at th chicken dance O.O" fun hahah.

well after that th 5 empires formed th words F O W, Venos formed half of W, th mess was slowly moved into th words and due t a change of positions, Beverly was sitting beside me O.O" jeez i get so nervous beside pretty girls .. well we diddnt really talk hahah, she only asked what were th GLs cheering. after that we were dismissed into our own empires for a debrief, we had so much fun !

well after that we got back t get our stuffs, and at th point of time where loads of ppl are asking for numbers, i asked for Fitri's number and then later i asked for Beverly's number. jeez that was rather weird asking for her number and she just passed me her phone for me t type in, hahah i pressed th wrong button =.= anyway she type in her own number, guess she saw Jinye's picture hahah, Beverly sure has a resemblence t Jinye, a good friend and a girl i once liked O.O" hahahs. weird thing is, th only girl who has touched my phone was Jinye and Beverly was next O.O" lol usually i dont let anyone touch my phone other than just calling and such. well after that we went t get change and later meet up outside th sports com t wait for th GLs.

chat and played some games . later we all went t th CPF building together. well Cheston and th rest of them went t buy macs if nt wrong, and i went with th GLs t buy at tempines mall. i was th only freshie that followed along hahah. took th LJS' golden meal 1, fish + fries + large coke(upsized) . it was also a get-to-know-more time with th GLs . we got back so late ! well later we had t change place cause th security guard there was gna call th police =.=

went t th stadium there t gather up and we played some games, Xi Niu Nai again ! this time we played a round of th 'slow' version for th new ppl t catch up, was fun hahah i was th 2nd person standing xD lol during my turn i fried alot of peeps. later this girl picked her phone so we skipped her and i was playing against Beverly(she just joined with prisc and cant really play well) but later when th other girl got back it was rather confusing, thinking whose turn it is. we played until it was me and this other guy when i lost (sorta put th wrong sign when i say th words =.=) hahah atleast i dont need t be 'milk king' . well after that we played rounds of th 'violent' version, when its fast and you had t shout out . fun hahah excitingly fast ! well after that me, Nicholas, Jel and Butt (er .. thats his nickname) went back together, but they took 168 and i took 969. well if i took 168 with them, i had t change bus and miss th last bus anyway. but i was fun on th 3rd day ! and we'll see each other again on friday ! oh yah, Cheston's GL eye-candy was Fion, Nicholas(GL)'s eye candy was also Fion.

anyway that night, th bus made me so sleepy that i fell asleep soon after i reach home, even before i change =.=" sleepy =\

VENOS ROCKS !! GO VENOS GO !